My upcoming book is not esotericism. But it’s not the other side of the coin either — it’s not religion. It’s about God, but about the real one, not the one created by people. About the one I found in a place I would never have thought to look — inside myself. In my heart, behind all the pain I carried within me. There, behind all the dark clouds that arose from difficult situations in my childhood and later life — from anger, sadness, unforgiveness… behind all that darkness, there was light.
Those dark layers had to fall away one by one, like peeling an onion. It didn’t happen on its own — I had to make it happen. I had to face fear and take the first step. After that, I found enormous strength, patience, and perseverance within myself. I healed from things that are called “incurable” or “lifelong.” No one did anything for me — I was the one who had to take every step.
But I wasn’t alone. When I once asked God why I only saw my footprints on the ground, He said to me: “Those are mine. I’m carrying you.” I felt Him — He was there with me and still is. He guides me and communicates with me intensely through my inner voice, my intuition.
People ask me what plans I have for the book or whether I follow this or that person. My answer is: none, and I don’t follow anyone. I listen and trust life. I surrender and follow what and how it comes to me. That’s how I take my next steps. For me, the best influencer is God, and my goal, my purpose in life, is to tune into His frequency and follow it for the rest of my life.
P.S. For me, esotericism and religion are like two opposite poles on a sideways eight, or two sides of the same coin. The truth lies in the middle.
About the Author of the Article
I am the author of the book How to Heal? My Journey of Healing from Depression Without Medication. And Not Only from That. It was accompanied by nonstop migraines, anxiety, panic attacks, and suicidal thoughts. The first time, I completely healed in 8 months, and about 10 years later, in 1 year and 3 months. It was a path of changes I had to make if I truly wanted to be healthy. I succeeded.